I’m suffering from what feels like a lack of time.
It’s taking me more than two weeks to finish reading a book, and I haven’t exercised in I don’t know how long. I keep saying I’m going to work on my Etsy store, add new items and work on Instagram, and then I don’t find the time to do so and push it off to the next week, every single week.
I want to read more books, listen to more podcasts, spend more time binge watching television shows that everyone’s talking about. I want to comment on other people’s blogs and be active on Instagram on all three of my accounts (I am slightly embarrassed that I have three).
I don’t know what the point I’m making today is, honestly. I’m just trying to say that I’m tired, I feel like I’m constantly working, and yet I’m still not getting everything done that I want to.
I really want to do book reviews more often on this blog. When I first started them, it was supposed to be a bi-monthly occurrence, at the very least. It was my goal to eventually start posting them at least every Friday, and more often if I was reading quicker, and somehow instead I’ve started posting them about once a month.
I do have a plan. To try to get back on track in April, I’m going to set myself a goal of reading at least 50 pages of my current read every single day. That puts me at finishing a 350 page book in a week, which would make me feel pretty satisfied right now.
I keep thinking of all these examples of people who did amazing things while having very little time. Like JK Rowling, who was a single mother and broke when she wrote Harry Potter. Or every writer ever who wrote a novel while working a full time job. Or all of these people.
I lost 40 hours of my week when I started working full time again in February, and I’m incredibly grateful to have a paycheck again, don’t get me wrong. But it’s been difficult to squeeze everything in having lost that much time. And when I look at all these people who were successful even though they lived regular lives, sometimes I feel defeated.
I guess what I’m getting on the blog to say today is that it’s okay to talk about the crappy stuff. I don’t feel particularly inspiring this week — I just feel like I’m barely getting everything done. But I’m still at the library after an 8 hour day of work, and I’m still typing this blog. I’m still here. I’m still here.
I think (I hope) that showing up is half the battle. I vow to keep showing up to this space, to keep showing up to my novel (which I need to start editing this month), to keep showing up to all of the creative projects that I’ve started.
One day, this will be my job. All of this creativity. I am confident in that. But for now, I just need to show up and do as much as I can.
I hope that you find the strength to show up this week, too. And if you just can’t, don’t make yourself feel bad about it. There’s next week, there’s next month, there’s next year. Just know that not everything has to happen rightthissecond. That’s the reminder I have to give myself every single day.
You read so much! I don’t know if I could read 50 pages a day (besides the law books I slave over!)
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Thank you so much! I did read 50 pages yesterday, but lately I’ve been reading about 20. I am far more impressed that you’re reading law books! I’m only talking about novels.
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Novels are in depth though! Some novels aren’t easy reads
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That’s true! I guess it depends on what kind of book I’m reading, as well. I find that I read some books quickly and others very slowly.
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What book took you super long to finish and what book only took a few hours?
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I can’t remember the last time I finished a book in a few hours! I read The Immortalists recently and that one took me less than a week, which is an accomplishment lately. As far as a long read…I read this book called Ireland by Frank Delaney a little while ago, and that one felt like it took me a month to read. It was very long and filled with so much information that I had to absorb it in small chunks. I really loved it, though.
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Oh very cool! It sounds like history?
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It was historical and also full of folklore. It was great! If you’re into Ireland at all I recommend it
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Well I’m Irish so of course! : You
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Oops typo! lol but yes I’m super into Ireland
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Definitely look into it! It was a such a slow read but a great one. I put up a review of it a month or so ago if you scroll back
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I’ll definitely go check it out and read your blog post! 🙂
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It sounds to me like you’re doing great! Keep up the work!
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Thank you so much!
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Make sure you are enjoying the “ride.” Life is short, and what’s the point of arriving at the end if the “ride” wasn’t enjoyable.
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Thank you! That is definitely an important perspective to hold on to.
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I admire your confidence. One day, it will be your job. The key here is to take small steps. Small steps forward are better than no steps. Even if your pace is minute, you’re still lapping everyone standing idle. Take your time, enjoy the journey, and one day you’re going to succeed and influence others to succeed as you’ll be able to relate to them.
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Thank you so much for this comment. It is absolutely the thing I needed after too many weeks of working too much in a row!
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